Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Is an apartment flood an emergency?

Not compared to my mental health! Today, my wife ran a bath and forgot that the water was running for 30 to 45 minutes and one half of our apartment was flooded. I was definitely worked up with symptoms of anger, anxiety, fear. I was startled and couldn't believe this had happened. I spotted pretty quickly distressing but not dangerous, it wasn't an emergency, I can take the clean up process in part acts and command my muscles in a way to not work myself up further. Also spotted some averageness in that this type of thing happens to others and you have to deal with it whether it comes from fate or negligence. Nothing important was permanently water damaged. My wife did something that irritated me but not to irritate me; she was plenty upset with herself for her forgetfulness. I felt better after I got into the cleaning up process but symptoms continued on various levels for some time. It is now late evening and a lot of progress has been made. I see more deeply that regardless of what happens, I have a choice whether to work something up or not, to see it as exceptional or not, to command the muscles or not, to spot or not, etc. The will says yes or no. Before Recovery, I would have gone into panic/emergency mode and stayed in major symptoms for a longer period. I am not Mr. calmness at this moment but I am doing better and feel that dealing with this experience has strengthened my nervous fiber.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Is it an Emergency?

Too often, I don't know the difference between a trivial outer event or situation and an emergency. Oh, I frequently know the difference intellectually but not on an emotional, feeling level. When that strong link feeling of emergency is present, anything that is going on during the day seems to be of paramount importance e.g. getting a certain task done, doing a complete round of calisthenics or returning a phone call.

I am learning from our Method that I can challenge my belief that something is an emergency through commanding my muscles not to do the thing (or do it slower) I feel I must do and bear the temporary discomfort of an impulse being frustrated. I am not a prisoner of the dictates of my mind. My demanding thoughts can be challenged.

I want to be a free human being and our Method, I believe, is a road map to having freedom within myself. It is a pathway for regaining self-management of my inner environment. Sometimes, it takes the will to bear torture. But our founder, Dr. Abraham Low, said that torture can be borne for a good purpose. To become free from the tyranny of my own thinking seems to qualify, doesn't it? So I will persist and persevere and endorse myself as I go along.

Look, I want to see things as they are. Is it an emergency or a triviality? The Method provides me a way to discern the difference. As I do that, it is gradually becoming clearer to me that I have very very few emergencies - just "worked up" trivialities that feel like emergencies.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Opening Day Greeting

I have just set up my blog and will endorse for the effort since I had to persevere through some trivial complications. I will now trigger spot and lower my standards for my first blog and limit it to saying that the Recovery International Method has been and continues to be a backbone of my life and a key reason why my mental health has risen from the ashes of doom, despair and hopelessness to a dynamic and fulfilling life.